Not Today (acoustic)

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An updated acoustic version of a single we released years ago. Lyrics by me, music by Anto.

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Wait, not today
Don’t bother with your smiles,
Don’t pretend you’re still my friend
because now I know the truth –
I see the things you do
and hear the lies you spew

For so long I let you in and
Bought the stories that you told,
Stood by and let you steal, let you cut me to the bone
It will never change, you will keep making excuses
But now I just don’t care, watch me walk away

(Chorus)
Fuck you! You will never break me
Come on take your best shot
But you won’t take me down
Hell no! I won’t take it, anymore
I’m stronger now and you
You will never hurt me again

The face that you show is just a role you play
Fake sincerity – you mask the cold and cut with your charm
You make others bleed for what you need

For so long I let you in and
Bought the stories that you told,
Stood by and let you steal, let you cut me to the bone
It will never change, you’ll keep making excuses
But now I just don’t care, watch me walk away

(Chorus)
Fuck you! You will never break me
Come on take your best shot
But you won’t take me down
Hell no! I won’t take it, anymore
Cause I am stronger now
and you will never hurt me again

You’ve done the worst you can do
Your reign is done – so fuck you!

 

 

The Hero.

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What is there to see?
There’s nothing left of me
I’m nothing but invisible
I’m no one but I’ll be

I’ll be the hero
My fate will find a way
There’s hope for tomorrow
I’ll be the hero and
Save you
I will save you, save you

Reflections don’t show
the me that I know
they’re just
shades of promises
see-through colours
pictures of who I’m meant to be

I’ll be the hero
my fate will find a way
there’s hope for tomorrow
Cause I’ll be the hero and
Save you
I will save you, save you
Save you
I will save you, save you

I’ll figure out this destiny
I can hear it calling to me
I will fade to gain
and find my place
My fate will find a way

I’ll be your hero
my fate will find a way
There’s hope for tomorrow
Cause I’ll be the hero and
Save you
I will save you, save you
Save you
I will save you, I will save you

 

lyrics by me, music and beautiful vocals by Anto

What Does Midnight Know – new video

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We have a new song. 🙂

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“What Does Midnight Know”
Close your eyes if you don’t want to see what’s waiting for you in the night
what’s hiding from the light
No don’t look down if you don’t want a peek into the nightmares
that you write when you are bored by life
Do you want to see what’s hiding in the shadows
Do you, do you ever look into the shadows down below

Don’t want to look down

What does midnight know?
Can the truth escape the eyes that follow
Don’t forget they’re watching you
Keeping track of what you do
Do you want to know
What is hiding down below
What is hiding in the shadows
Just pray that it won’t haunt you for life

Don’t want to look down

Don’t look down
Hold on tight
Don’t look down into the night

Interview with the German Support page

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The past few days have been a hurricane of emotions and activity. My partner and I released a new EP on January 1st called, “Broken Pieces”. The work that goes into an EP and its release always surprises me. And at the end of that exhaustion is the nervous moment when you release your children out into the cold world for judgement. To use a tired cliche, it’s an emotional rollercoaster. Well a day after the release, our rollercoaster took a nasty turn and we made the hard decision to ‘un-release’ the newest single and video. It’s been a rough few days.

Amid the whirlwind however, the administrator of Anto’s German Support page on Facebook, Franzi Trebert, did an interview with both Anto and I about our writing process. I wanted to post it in the hopes that my fellow writers might find it interesting. Continue reading →

Sleepy City

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Not an echo, not a sound,

Life waits in silence while the rain washes over the wounds of the past

I’m walking on the same wet asphalt,

but the drops don’t touch me –

I am the sleepy city who can never be unpolluted.

 

 -by Anto & Chris

Update and “Everything”

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Life has been busier and more difficult than usual lately – if that’s even possible. I try not to complain though because I’ve learned the hard way that life can always get worse. Hardships disguise themselves as trials but I think positivity is the real challenge. Every once in awhile though, pure joy shines and a sense of calm bliss finds its home in the centre of my being. Most often, those moments resemble this one:

 

Whatever else is going on, I have the best friend and partner that even my imagination couldn’t conjur before I met him. There are many things about our relationship that people don’t understand – and I couldn’t care less. We work together, we love each other, we cry and laugh and worry together…and sometimes he just plays me music while I find my bliss again…

I’m working on that positivity…and “if the while I think on thee dear friend, all losses are restored and sorrows end.” (William Shakespeare, Sonnet 30)

 

Lyrical Stress

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I haven’t touched the novel in weeks…maybe longer. (Much longer). I’ve been working on lyrics and as the stresses of  ‘normal’ life increase exponentially, so have the pressures of writing lyrics to a deadline. The minutes slip away as the studio date draws near.

But finally, my partner in rhyme and I finished writing the lyrics for the final song tonight. It goes without saying that I’m not completely in love with every word but that’s part of the neurotic leanings of a writer. I can’t use enough superlatives to explain how much I love writing these songs together, but I’ll ponder and worry and rewrite until the final moments before recording. Every song needs to be vetted and I know I’ll hate each one of them before the process is over. And then I’ll fall in love with them all over again…

I kick myself because I’m not Shakespeare, but these are pop songs – and considering that one of the top songs right now (I song I might admit to liking *cough*) includes the lyrics, “Boom, boom, boom. Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon…”, maybe I should let go of my neurotic self-flagellation.

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The better half of this dynamic duo…

Late Night Freud and the First Glimmers of a New Idea

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It’s too late at night to ponder too deeply… my head is heavy and my thoughts are muddled. A thought just occurred to me though and I can’t believe I didn’t figure this out before now.

My writing has changed over the past couple of years. I attributed my change in focus to many things – mainly the fact that I acquired an amazing writing partner. Almost everything I write now is a shared labour of love and we get so caught up in ‘our’ stuff, that the latest novel keeps getting pushed to the side. Inspiration pours out of me in the form of poems and lyrics now and it’s a very different mindset and process than when I write a novel.

When I write the novels, I sit by myself and step into a world that’s of my creation – but not mine. It’s pure fantasy.

When I write songs and poems, I write with and for my partner, about a world that’s ours. It’s our reality.

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“Never On Your Own” by Anto

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Lyrics by Christine Noels
 
The shadows in your voice, they whisper my name
And through your laugh, you let me hear your pain
You let go of your doubt to reach out for me
And you know I, I won’t let you disappear
 
You fight against the world and who you should be
Trying to stay yourself and who they want to see
And screaming down you get lost in your fears
But you know I, I won’t let you disappear
 
(chorus)
You don’t need to keep fighting
You’re not here alone
I’ve got your hand, I’ve got your back
You’re never on your own
 
They play their games and gamble with your dreams
They hold you down and listen to you scream
Their promises keep changing into tears
But you know I, I won’t let you disappear

 
(chorus) 
You don’t need to keep fighting
You’re not here alone
I’ve got your hand, I’ve got your back
You’re never on your own
 
The shadows in your voice, they whisper my name
And I’ll be here, I’ll never walk away
 

by Anto

My Partner in Rhyme

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I’ve never been a team player.

Oh, I work well with others – I share my toys and encourage everyone, and I’m really good at being in charge – but I’d much rather work alone. Too independent, too impatient and frankly, too resistant to authority, I hate being part of the crowd. Even as a child I’d do anything to avoid the dreaded group projects at school. “Pick a partner” was the battle-cry of sadists posing as teachers.

So imagine my surprise to find out that there’s one person in this world with whom I can write. Write! Personal and deeply introspective, the process of writing has no rules or universal truths. It’s as individual as each writer – even from project to project the process can change dramatically. So then how is it possible that I can not only write with someone else but revel in the joy of it…

I write with my best friend.

We don’t always write together; I have my novels and whatever else sparks my imagination, while he has his songs and stories, his poetry… But there are times when we come together to work on something and it surpasses anything else I’ve ever done as a writer. Suddenly, there’s joy in finding the right combination of words. There’s excitement when we realize at the same moment that a sentence is perfect. There’s a bond in creating something together. We know each other so deeply, know how the other one thinks, how the other one sees the world… I think we create something together that neither one of us could create on our own.  

I’m still not a team player. I couldn’t duplicate this experience with anyone else – nor do I want to try. There’s a trust and love that doesn’t exist anywhere but inside of us and it’s that bond that allows us to go beyond building worlds. It’s about creating something intimate. It’s about what exists between us… Maybe that’s the magic…