He’s been singing this song for years but only in private – so of course I’ve been bugging him for years to actually press record before he does it again. He finally listened! 😀
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He’s been singing this song for years but only in private – so of course I’ve been bugging him for years to actually press record before he does it again. He finally listened! 😀
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What is there to see?
There’s nothing left of me
I’m nothing but invisible
I’m no one but I’ll be
I’ll be the hero
My fate will find a way
There’s hope for tomorrow
I’ll be the hero and
Save you
I will save you, save you
Reflections don’t show
the me that I know
they’re just
shades of promises
see-through colours
pictures of who I’m meant to be
I’ll be the hero
my fate will find a way
there’s hope for tomorrow
Cause I’ll be the hero and
Save you
I will save you, save you
Save you
I will save you, save you
I’ll figure out this destiny
I can hear it calling to me
I will fade to gain
and find my place
My fate will find a way
I’ll be your hero
my fate will find a way
There’s hope for tomorrow
Cause I’ll be the hero and
Save you
I will save you, save you
Save you
I will save you, I will save you
We have a new song. 🙂
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“What Does Midnight Know”
Close your eyes if you don’t want to see what’s waiting for you in the night
what’s hiding from the light
No don’t look down if you don’t want a peek into the nightmares
that you write when you are bored by life
Do you want to see what’s hiding in the shadows
Do you, do you ever look into the shadows down below
Don’t want to look down
What does midnight know?
Can the truth escape the eyes that follow
Don’t forget they’re watching you
Keeping track of what you do
Do you want to know
What is hiding down below
What is hiding in the shadows
Just pray that it won’t haunt you for life
Don’t want to look down
Don’t look down
Hold on tight
Don’t look down into the night
Thank you Lorna!
The latest single I wrote with Anto.
And now for something happy! 😀
This is going to be a particularly self-indulgent blog but at the moment let’s just embrace the idea that all expression is self-indulgent so why even try to draw lines. 🙂 As long as I don’t wander into self-pitying territory, I’ll call it a win.
There have been three ‘events’ that have been taking centre-stage in my life this week.
1) I’ve been sick this week. Some of you know I have fibromyalgia but I’ve also had a chest infection that left me desperate for oxygen for a few days. I’m feeling stronger tonight so hopefully I’ll be back to ‘fighting form’ soon.
2) Anto and I released another cover. He’s singing some more Goo Goo Dolls and as always, I’m very proud of him. Working together is a strange and wonderful combination of passion/love/job/partnership… It is a job (being his personal manager and of course writing together) that few people in my personal life take seriously or respect, but I’m more committed to it than any other work I’ve ever done. This is who I am. The fact that I love it and get to create and build something together with someone who loves me, is one of the greatest blessings in my life.
3) This is a bad week for my family. Twenty years ago tonight my brother was killed in a car accident. I know twenty years sounds like a long time to some of you, but his loss is always with us. Every year is a bit different. The week leading up to this day is full of other milestones like his birthday and my parents’ Anniversary. It’s also packed with other milestones that seem to haunt us – every March something disastrous seems to happen to our family! Except last year. Last year nothing horrible happened and this year, crossing my fingers, we’ve done okay. (My mother would likely disagree since I’ve been so sick. I’m sure she chalks emergency room visits up to the curse of March but..)
So the bottom line in all this is that I’m particularly grateful to the people who are by my side in this moment. My natural reaction is to focus on who isn’t there for me – and admittedly I’ve done that. I get frustrated that I don’t see support from people who I wish would support me. When I’m excited about stuff I’ve written, stuff that I’ve been working hard on and no one in my personal life bothers to check it out, it depresses me. I know this is a common complaint amongst creative types but sometimes it really does get me down.
And now I’m getting to the end of the post and I don’t even remember why I started writing… I think it has to do with the day. I wish I could write something brilliant for my brother, I wish I could touch people with my writing more, I wish I could make Anto’s and my dreams come true faster, I wish I could’ve spent more time with my son this week rather than being cooped up in this bedroom…
Guess I wandered across the line into self-pity…
So time to dust myself off and get back into fighting mode. Tonight will be a long night but tomorrow I know I’ll feel stronger.
PS – To those people who ARE there for me, I love you and I never take you for granted. You are the reason I believe in everything good.
No matter the distance, the miles of
fights and broken screams
There’s always a moment when we figure out
what it all means.
Laying here inside your love
hearing your heart beat free,
the melody inside your soul
brings me back to “I Believe.”
-by Anto & Chris
As personal manager and press contact for Anto, I am THRILLED to announce that we have a new website. (Between you and me, it makes my job easier! ::happy sigh::) As partner/best friend etc., I am proud. I helped as far as the business end of setting up the domain, making decisions and planning – and of course the writing, but Anto did the dirty work. Never satisfied with using templates, he designed the site and wrote the code, loaded it onto the platform.. and more stuff that I won’t pretend to understand. It’s easy for me to say “we need separate tabs for photos and videos” but he actually knows how to make it happen.
Have a look around and click on some music – it’s all available as free downloads in the ‘store’. 🙂
Finally! Our new song.
Music and lyrics written by Antonio Cappiello and Christine Noels
Music video by Anto performing Back in Time. (C) 2011
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Social interaction is a basic need of the human psyche. It helps define our identities and is a critical building block of self-image and self-esteem. We may hate to admit it, but how we see ourselves is coloured by how we think others see us. The looking-glass self can be blamed on evolution and the survival instinct to be protected by the group, but it still has real implications in today’s society – especially in a society that’s erected on Bluetooth and Skype.
We may ‘connect’ with more people and chat with people all over the world but we’re becoming vampires. We have conversations in under 140 characters and catch up over news feeds and comments. As society evolves devolves, people are losing the ability, maybe even the desire to interact in meaningful ways. Do we really know who are ‘friends’ are online. Do we ask? Do we have dialogues? Do we even respond to their messages or just ‘unsubscribe’ from them?
We’re becoming too insular. The more our worlds expand, the more closed off we are – and when we look into our proverbial mirrors, there’s no reflection staring back at us.
People are becoming invisible.
We say we want friends, but maybe we just want an audience.
Ask a kid today what he wants to be when he grows up; he says ‘famous’. He wants to be heard and seen. He wants attention because our society is void of it.
I used to consider generosity in terms of material or monetary value. Now I tend to use the word to describe people generous in spirit – giving of their warmth and their heart, giving of their time, their compassion and their positivity. We don’t just look for our own reflections in others, we also give them theirs, and being a reflection is a big responsibility. As human beings we should shoulder that responsibility with grace and kindness.
The more I look at the troubles and strife in this world, the more I think the root cause of it is someone just wanting to be heard, to be noticed. Hidden underneath people’s anger, hostility and apathy, are people who feel invisible.
Respond to others. Step out and embrace them, physically or metaphorically. Give a compliment, be a shoulder to lean on. Smile at the person standing in line that looks tired. Comment back, ‘like’ a picture, give of yourself – and maybe in doing so, you can find your own reflection again, smiling back at you.
An updated acoustic version of a single we released years ago. Lyrics by me, music by Anto.
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Wait, not today
Don’t bother with your smiles,
Don’t pretend you’re still my friend
because now I know the truth –
I see the things you do
and hear the lies you spew
For so long I let you in and
Bought the stories that you told,
Stood by and let you steal, let you cut me to the bone
It will never change, you will keep making excuses
But now I just don’t care, watch me walk away
(Chorus)
Fuck you! You will never break me
Come on take your best shot
But you won’t take me down
Hell no! I won’t take it, anymore
I’m stronger now and you
You will never hurt me again
The face that you show is just a role you play
Fake sincerity – you mask the cold and cut with your charm
You make others bleed for what you need
For so long I let you in and
Bought the stories that you told,
Stood by and let you steal, let you cut me to the bone
It will never change, you’ll keep making excuses
But now I just don’t care, watch me walk away
(Chorus)
Fuck you! You will never break me
Come on take your best shot
But you won’t take me down
Hell no! I won’t take it, anymore
Cause I am stronger now
and you will never hurt me again
You’ve done the worst you can do
Your reign is done – so fuck you!
Warm wishes to everyone this holiday season. xo
Written for my son.
Anto singing “White Christmas” makes me very happy…
Just go to http://www.antomusic.com The download is free and it’s beautiful. *___*